Hello friend, I’d like to encourage you that it’s not too late to find your purpose.
It took me 8years after my first degree to find my purpose in life, the reason for which I was created.
I had suffered rejection upon rejection in work places. My very first job which lasted for about a year was in the bank, and it happened to be my place of primary assignment during my NYSC, I was happy that I was going to be retained because I was divinely elevated while working there, and my bosses submitted reports to me which I collated everyday and forwarded to the regional office.
You can imagine the Joy and elation I felt that my life has began and I was already on the right path. The bank problems arose coincidentally at this period and people were laid off, I happened to be amongst the set of corpers retained after service but our set was also laid off after three months and the siege began.
I searched for jobs, I managed to get one but lack of vision and dissatisfaction made me quit after a month, and if I get another, harassment from the boss would make my life a living hell and I would run away without any form of payment.
I was perplexed, I felt useless but all in all God was faithful, He never stopped advancing me in other areas
He gave me a good and godly man who spurred me to advance my studies abroad, I did and we even got married there. He never stopped encouraging me to keep striving and trying. God was faithful and I also got pregnant and had a child.
I resumed my search for a job after our child was weaned, but the rejection still continued, it’s so bad that if I apply for a job, and I receive their feedback, before I open the mail I already know it’s another rejection.
I was sad, I felt as if I was wasting away, I knew that there was raw gold in me that God has deposited but I was confused as to how to utilise it, I felt I needed to work for someone in order to burst forth.
The last rejection I suffered that spurred me to discover my purpose was sometimes in February this year, I had written the exam and passed the major criteria which was an English test.
I was elated that I would finally clinch this one, I was already making plans on child care and all, I had 100% faith that this was my breakthrough, but alas another huge rejection came, I was not taken!
I felt the whole world collapse around me, I felt as if I was not good enough for employment, I wanted to just end it all, my husband saw my tears and was seriously worried, he counselled me, whilst he was doing that I asked him Has God forgotten me? I was so sad and tired of it all.
Days later, I laid down and was thinking of the next step to take and how confused I had become, when a voice whispered, start writing, open a blog.
You see friend, this voice had spoken to me for years but I never listened, I felt like what avenue would I use to convey my messages to the world? Would people hear me? Hun hun, I am not blogging!
This taught me a huge lesson, the Lord speaks to us every time about what to do and what path to take but if we suppress Him the voice gets weaker till you are unable to hear it again. I stood up, researched and started putting things together, and here I am today, conveying my messages to the world and touching lives positively.
I have never felt so fulfilled, it’s as if I have wasted my whole time waiting for a job while I could have started writing all this while.
The Lord told me, it’s not too late, for this purpose and time was I created, and I bless Him for giving me the opportunity to finally recognise this and not continue to grapple for things which might never materialise.
I’d like to encourage you friend, it is not too late to find your purpose, you are not a wastrel, God has not forgotten you, everything might look blurry and stagnant now, but I want to tell you that you should be still and know that He is God. He sees your heart, He knows your worry, go back to God discuss with Him, cast all your worries unto Him, He is capable and He would deliver you.
Are you feeling as if time is running ahead of you and that you are wasting away? Remember in habakkuk 2:3 the bible says,
for the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie: though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry!
Also remember the bible also says in Psalm 126v1, when the Lord turned again the captivity of Zion we were like them that dream.
I want you to know that whatever you might be going through now will pass, it will be over totally and you would look back and smile, you would testify to the whole world of His faithfulness only if you remain steadfast in Christ Jesus.
Hold on, hold out, your miracle and turn around is just around the corner.
God bless you.
Written by Oluwatosin Olajumoke Arodudu
